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25 years old
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from Provo, UT

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    • A Novel, Read, Not Closed

      5 months ago

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      This journal entry has been on my mind quite a bit lately, and I've been putting it off. It's time to close the book.

      This is actually the second account I made on this site. I got really into Red vs Blue around season 5 and I wanted to watch the episodes sooner, so I created an account just for that purpose. It had some dorky username with a bunch of excessive letters and numbers, and I didn't use it for anything other than watching videos and leaving the occasional comment to talk about story predictions. Eventually, I got into the forums of Red vs Blue, and I started building some rapport with the residents. It was at this point that I discovered the social part of the site.

      2011 was a strange year in my life. I was raised in Utah Valley, a place where nearly 80% of the population is extremely religious, my own family included. The area is so heavily saturated with member of the LDS church, that much of the doctorine and expectiations bleed into everyday society. One of those expectations being mission service. When a young man leaves high school and turns 19 years old (18 as of 2014), he is to leave behind his family, his home, his career and education goals, and honorably serve the Church in lands near and abroad. After leaving high school, however, whilst all my friends were leaving to fulfil their duty and serve their Church, I was having a massive crisis of faith.

      I'm sure a few of you out there have experienced a loss of religion as I had, and if you did you'll probably agree: It fucking sucks. Years of *good intentioned* indoctorination had spun a thick and tangled web in my brain, and with every small lesson or flaw of which I came to disillusion myself, another massive brick was removed from a foundation I had built my entire life, my personal philosophy, my beliefs on. I became spiritually unstable.

      While love is the cornerstone of most religions, apostasy will always taint your reputation with failure, selfishness, or just being broken goods. It's hard to love something broken. Most of the people that I relied on and leaned to in hard times were member of the church, so in the midst of one of my greatest struggles, I was alone. This, following being fired for the first time from a really really terrible job, drove me into some serious depression. For over 8 months LITERALLY all I did was stay the unfinished basement of my parents rental home, play Halo: Reach or Assassins Creed or Minecraft, and occasionally sleep. I left the house maybe once every other day just because I felt I was obliged to go outside. I usually spent this time just driving around my city.

      5 months into my pity party, in February of 2012, I created a new account here on RoosterTeeth.com with the distant hope of maybe connecting with some new people. The folks I talked to in the forums were nice enough, so it couldn't hurt, right? I ditched my old account with the lame username, and made a new account with a name as open and honest as it could get. My own name, NickGibson.


      The following 3 years will always have a special place in my heart. I made dozens of new, unique friends from all over the world. I created and guest starred in community podcasts, voice acted in and helped create dumb web series, I became an active member of many groups on the site, and eventually found myself a member of an RT Skype Group filled with people practically overflowing with creativity, charisma, friendliness, and ambition. I attended RTX 2014 and I started a Let's Play YouTube channel with friends from the site. Everywhere I looked my life was becoming fuller. In my real life, I had overcompensated for my 8 month pity party by getting 4 part time jobs doing things that I enjoyed, I had learned to compartmentalize my concerns with religion and purpose, and my friends from high school started coming back from their 2 year missions away. 


      Things grow. Things change. The RT site eventually changed and loss a good chunk it's social usability, and consquently, it's userbase. I moved out of my parents unfinished basement into an apartment with RoosterTeeth friends, we eventually upgraded to a house. My many part time jobs considated into 1 or 2 good jobs that continue to challenge and teach me everyday. I learned to express myself by creating music and art and writing.

      I'm definitely not a 100% well adjusted man, but I can safely and proudly say that I am in an infinitely better place than I was at this time 6 years ago. The Rooster Teeth videos may be funny, the cast and crew may be good entertainers, the shows may have good story, but in the end it wasn't any of that which helped me in some of my hardest times, it was YOU. YOU, who wanted to hang out and play GTA Online, or wanted to share art you made and give thoughts on my own. YOU, who asked me to help you create content just for the fun of it. YOU, who trusted me with your secret dreams and ambitions. YOU, who wrote and read great journal entries about thoughts and feelings about whatever.

      YOU are the heart and soul of this website and this community. I would like to extend the warmest possible THANK YOU I can muster to anyone and everyone on this site that made it and continues to make it haven it was for me.


      Thank you. 

      -Nick

    • Still There?

      2 years ago

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      I've been pretty absent since the new version of the site launched. It's pretty much lost all functionality for what I used it for, which was effectively engaging in the community. Most redirects are broken, groups and friends are scattered, and really odd posts filled up the everyone feed. I was waiting for things to be fixed, but it doesn't look like any progress has been made whatsoever. The community I fell in love with was essentially gutted. So I don't come here very often anymore.

      I checked in today just to see what the few of you left are up to, and I noticed something odd in my notifications.

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      When I click on any of these, I just get redirected to random journal posts. Does this happen for anyone else, or was I FU or something and it's just another broken redirect issue?

    • Starting a Podcast(?)

      2 years ago

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      I'm thinking about starting a podcast about comedy and digital entertainment. It's just a thought right now. Still contemplating possible names, themes, and if I should have recurring co-hosts or special guests. If anyone here would be interested in participating in something like this let me know!

    • Expression

      2 years ago

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      I've always been a very introspective person. Sometimes when I'm feeling down, I try to capture the essence of what I'm experiencing. Thoughts, feelings, emotion, all perfectly blended to create an identity in the moment.

      I've tried capturing these moments with music, poetry, storytelling, or other crafts. Today was one of these times, so I decided that I would like to try to draw in photoshop what I was feeling.

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    • It's 105° Today

      2 years ago

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      I've never seen a human melt before but I think I'm about to.

    • Tattoo Commision

      2 years ago

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      A friend recently asked me to help design a tattoo for him based on the Knight Chess Piece.
      After a few rough sketches on paper, I found an idea that we liked, and I used a chalk marker to test it on my hand, to see how it would work on actual skin.
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      I was pretty happy with how it turned out, so I took it to Photoshop and built a vector for ultimate smoothness.
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      I just sent him the file to take to wherever tattoo parlor he is going. It's out of my hands now. But this is my first time creating a tattoo from scratch that someone might have on their body for life. Pretty cool thought.

      Also this journal serves as a reminder that I am always open to design or digital editing commissions if anyone is interested. My prices depend on the job, but I'm not expensive and very easy to work with. PM me if you are interested in anything.

      Nick out.
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    • RTex

      3 years ago

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      So, if any of you follow my journals, I was planning on attending RTX 2015. Long story short, I was holding out for press tickets, and it didn't happen. But I do still have a private 4 bed room reserved at the Firehouse Hostel in downtown Austin. I'm going to cancel my reservation for the room, but before I do, I was wondering if anyone wants it? PM me if you are interested and we can coordinate transferring the reservation.

      Peace, Y'all. smiley13.gif

    • 3 years ago

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  • Comments (43)

    • tara FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      3 months ago

      Oh wow, you still have that same GIF in your About Me. I love it. 

    • AllTimeTessa

      3 years ago

      Oh you bitch I was stalking your profile(Not in a weird way) & I clicked the link. I feel betrayed :|

      • AllTimeTessa

        3 years ago

        Can a girl not stalk without getting caught by a sneaky friend request link? (Okay maybe it was in a slightly weird way)

    • tara FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      3 years ago

      im streaming nick. you're going to miss it again aren't you?

      • Deltaverse FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Test Title

        3 years ago

        You're right though. I would have absolutely missed it. Really important work stuff got me doing 24 hours in 2 days. Thanks for the heads up, though.

        Next time for sure. smiley8.gif

      • tara FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

        3 years ago

        nvm twitch hates me.

    • Toptoast FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Keeper of the Breakfast

      3 years ago

      Hey, you're more awesome than Yoda rapping "Lose Yourself" by Eminem!

    • tara FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      3 years ago

      When is the next stream Nick?

      • Deltaverse FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Test Title

        3 years ago

        Will do. smiley8.gif

      • tara FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

        3 years ago

        SWEET. Let me know. I want to be there.

      • Deltaverse FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Test Title

        3 years ago

        Probably next week. I've been crazy busy with work this last week, so I haven't had time for one. But I just got a new game capture card so I might do some xbone in the next little bit.

    • Okami_117

      3 years ago

      Hey, I used to live in Utah, in this small town called Virgin close to Zion. It's nice to find someone else from Utah! 😺

      • Deltaverse FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Test Title

        3 years ago

        Awesome! Good to meet you!

    • NealMcNeal FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold The Real Deal

      4 years ago

      Happy Birthday! Hope you have a fantastic day! smiley0.gifsmiley13.gif

    • AllTimeTessa

      4 years ago

      I never really do things like this, but I just wanted to say something that may come out awkward &/or stalkerish but I promise I mean it in the kindest sense.

      I've been subscribed to your posts on here for I think about 4 months & you seem like an absolutely lovely person. I never quite have the nerve/cleverness to comment on any of your posts but they're really very enjoyable to read & can turn a very dark mood into a light one.
      So yeah, not really sure where I wanted to go with this but you seem like a very pleasant person & I really appreciate your activity on the site.
      &... Yeah that's really all, so goodbye ^v^

      • AllTimeTessa

        4 years ago

        Any time! I always think the few members I enjoy on this site deserve to know they're appreciated in some manner.

      • Deltaverse FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Test Title

        4 years ago

        Thanks so much! That's really means a lot. I'm always so amazed at the quality of interaction that is constantly presented in this community. The fact that I can be inspired, befriended, and personally connected with people from all corners of the planet is absolutely awe-inspiring to me. If I can pass that on in any way to other people in the community with my thoughts and projects, I am extremely fulfilled.

        Thanks for sharing! You're awesome smiley0.gif

    • Kamikaze839

      4 years ago

      Hey Delta, do you mind making a profile image for Rooster Teeth Compliments? Also check out The Rooster Teeth Safe Room too.

      • Deltaverse FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Test Title

        4 years ago

        Payment is always negotiable. We can work something out if you're interested.

      • Kamikaze839

        4 years ago

        Hmmm, the profile image payment might be tricky for now, I'm a bit down on cash myself...

      • Deltaverse FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Test Title

        4 years ago

        If you want to contact her and tell her about my services, I'd be more than happy to make her one if she requests it. I am charging light commissions for designs now, so I can pay for RTX in July. An original group profile design will run at $10 via paypal.

      • Kamikaze839

        4 years ago

        Suggestion, I think you should contact her about that?

      • Deltaverse FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Test Title

        4 years ago

        Does the Safe Room admin want a group picture made? Or is this just a suggestion?

    • conrad500

      4 years ago

      Did I kill you? I died soon after if that makes you feel better!

      • conrad500

        4 years ago

        xD

      • Deltaverse FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Test Title

        4 years ago

        You did! and I was watching your stream so I was relieved when I saw you die in your own lava. Thanks, Universe.

    • JakeHCoker

      4 years ago

      Happy Valentines Day man! I still remember seeing some of your sweet looking pictures and deciding to check out your profile. The friend request came soon after looking at that awesome crab gif lol. Hope to get to know you better bro! Stay awesome ^_^

    • FrancesClair FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      4 years ago

      So what kinds of things do you write?

      • FrancesClair FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

        4 years ago

        Mmm I like hearing about what other people write since I spend way too much time writing. Both of those sound intriguing. Anti-scifi has an interesting ring to it and film noir is such a lovely style.

      • Deltaverse FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Test Title

        4 years ago

        Being a film student, I'll write scripts and visual-to-be stories. I'm working on two scripts right now, a quirky noir style short film, and... well the best way to explain the other is as an "anti-scifi."

    • Druyii Dreamscaper

      4 years ago

      Welcome to ZomboCom!

      • Deltaverse FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Test Title

        4 years ago

        You can do anything at ZomboCom. The only limitation is yourself.

    • LostInSweden

      4 years ago

      hai hai, thx for adding me ^3^

      • LostInSweden

        4 years ago

        How sweet of you, thank you! Glad you like it =DD

      • Deltaverse FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Test Title

        4 years ago

        Absolutely! I've been seeing your artwork around the site lately and I love it! Awesome stuff! smiley0.gif

    • Mat

      5 years ago

      Knock knock.

      • zogman1

        4 years ago

        .......god damnit Mat!

      • Deltaverse FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Test Title

        5 years ago

        .....

      • Mat

        5 years ago

        Weiss Toftime

      • Deltaverse FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Test Title

        5 years ago

        Weiss who?

      • Mat

        5 years ago

        Weiss

      • Deltaverse FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Test Title

        5 years ago

        Whosere?

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